feelings. feelings. the truth is, for so long i’d forgotten what those even were. i’ve been stuck in one place, in a cave you might say, a deep, dark cave. and then, i left some eggos out in the woods, and you came into my life. and for the first time i started to feel things again. i started to feel happy. but lately, i guess i’ve been feeling distant from you. like you’re… pulling away from me or something. i miss playing board games every night. making triple-decker eggo extravaganzas at sunrise. watching westerns together before we doze off. but i know you’re getting older. growing. changing. and i guess… if i’m being really honest, that’s what scares me. i don’t want things to change. so i think maybe that’s why i came in here, to try to maybe… stop that change. to turn back the clock. to make things go back to how they were. but i know that’s naive. it’s just… not how life works. it’s moving. always moving whether you like it or not. and yeah… sometimes it’s painful. sometimes it’s sad. and sometimes… it’s surprising. happy. so, you know what? keep on growing up, kid. don’t let me stop you. make mistakes, learn from ‘em. and when life hurts you, because it will, remember the hurt. the hurt is good. it means you’re out of that cave. but, please, if you don’t mind, for the sake of your poor old dad, keep the door open three inches.
I know that I’ve been gone too long and I just want you to know that it’s not about you and it’s not about our fight. Something came up and I’ll explain it all when I see you. I just… I want you to know that I’m not mad. I’m just sorry. About everything. I don’t want you to get hurt at all. And I don’t wanna lose you.
